Today was crazy...
Best workshop I've ever been through all my life.
Yeps, I sang my composed song hehe... But I still felt I could do much better. I guess it's cuz of lack for preparation. So my bad on my part.
I felt a pretty strong feeling though. I wanted to be as good as those guys who were just really good. It's too bad I wasn't allowed to record any of the performances. I'm sure you would have been blown away.
I'm not entirely sure why I wanna be like them. Need a lot of soul searching for that. If it's the recognition that their getting that I want, or is it because, simply I just love to do it.
I find myself singing more often though after the workshop hehe...
Feeling more inspired to write songs. One is probably on the way already haha... Recorded it in my mobile phone. Just in case I might use it in the future haha..
After the workshop I felt it genuinely that I wanted more, I want to sing some more haha...
I'm definitely going to next year's Dream Inc. workshop.
Until then, I will see how much I have allowed myself to be changed by the workshop.
I guess it's pretty much the choices that I make.
I'll see if I can join David Jaanz's school of singing.
So until then, I'll be working on my 'flow', and just enjoying every single day.
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Day 2 - Awesome time haha...
What a day...
Workshop was great.
Today I learned how to write songs, and learned a lot about Jazz.
It was really, really great. This time I went all out during the great 'S curve' warm up with David Jaanz. Just all out. Learned how to sing with emotion, how to sing from the heart. It's just so liberating, just really amazing.
I look forward to tomorrow's workshop. It's the last, so I'm just going to have even more fun than ever.
Giving it one more day, to find out if singing is really my passion. I'm starting to get clues though.
Yeah the other highlight of the day, I met Brooke Fraser! hahah...
Great person. Found out she was a talkative, bubbly person haha... It was cool meeting her.
If you don't know who she is, she's a top artist of NewZealand, and she's part of the Hillsong band. She composed several songs, but my favorite would be Hosanna.
Today I had to perform as well. This time I sang No boundaries, sung by Kris Allen, for 3o seconds. Didn't get to the chorus though haha...
It's alright, the main thing is I did it! yeah... Building my confidence by just getting up there and just sing in front of the 40+ people. hahah...
And again, many, many great singers I cant compare myself to. Goshh.... Who cares though, I'm finding my own 'flow' haha... The main thing is that I love to sing, and I'm just going to do it because I love it.
Somehow I felt a tinge of sadness though... I guess it's because I knew I could do better.
It's alright, I got tomorrow, and I'm just gonna enjoy and do my best.
This time I'll be singing my composed song, wont tell you what it is hehehehe.....
Only for the eyes and the ears of the Australians at the workshop haha!
Hmm... What else did I learn. Oh yeah. I don't care what people think I sound like, and I'm just gonna do what I love to do, and improve on it every time.
Looking forward to the last, and the best workshop.
God be with me. =]
Workshop was great.
Today I learned how to write songs, and learned a lot about Jazz.
It was really, really great. This time I went all out during the great 'S curve' warm up with David Jaanz. Just all out. Learned how to sing with emotion, how to sing from the heart. It's just so liberating, just really amazing.
I look forward to tomorrow's workshop. It's the last, so I'm just going to have even more fun than ever.
Giving it one more day, to find out if singing is really my passion. I'm starting to get clues though.
Yeah the other highlight of the day, I met Brooke Fraser! hahah...
Great person. Found out she was a talkative, bubbly person haha... It was cool meeting her.
If you don't know who she is, she's a top artist of NewZealand, and she's part of the Hillsong band. She composed several songs, but my favorite would be Hosanna.
Today I had to perform as well. This time I sang No boundaries, sung by Kris Allen, for 3o seconds. Didn't get to the chorus though haha...
It's alright, the main thing is I did it! yeah... Building my confidence by just getting up there and just sing in front of the 40+ people. hahah...
And again, many, many great singers I cant compare myself to. Goshh.... Who cares though, I'm finding my own 'flow' haha... The main thing is that I love to sing, and I'm just going to do it because I love it.
Somehow I felt a tinge of sadness though... I guess it's because I knew I could do better.
It's alright, I got tomorrow, and I'm just gonna enjoy and do my best.
This time I'll be singing my composed song, wont tell you what it is hehehehe.....
Only for the eyes and the ears of the Australians at the workshop haha!
Hmm... What else did I learn. Oh yeah. I don't care what people think I sound like, and I'm just gonna do what I love to do, and improve on it every time.
Looking forward to the last, and the best workshop.
God be with me. =]
Friday, September 18, 2009
Day 1 - Humbling time
What a day...
Learned a lot about myself during the workshop. Funny I'm suppose to learn more about singing and song writing. But yeah of course I did learn.
The most distinct thing that I actually learned was how much of a perfectionist I was.
Yeah... Pretty tough one. How I would actually see myself as one of the greats. hahah... I'm serious. Well, I didn't actually admit it. But I somehow would start to expect. Even though I would tell myself, no, I'm just going to have fun and learn and that's it.
Phewh... Saw many, many great singers, especially the young kids, 13-15 years of age, and I'm sure, very, very sure that you'd be astounded by how good they were, at such a young age, they're pretty much like divas. Man.... I really salute to their talent.
I'm sure they will go far.
That was such a humbling experience. And yeah, I did sing in front of like 40+ people, and wasn't prepared for it. Whoo... Haha... First time I've ever done that. Well, every single person had to do it anyway haha...
I really congratulate myself for that though. And I'm sure that experience added to my confidence in myself.
The other thing that I learned was that, to be great in the music industry. You gotta be you, because there will only be one you, your uniqueness, and nobody else can be you.
David Jaanz, one of the directors of the Dream Inc. workshop said that, many people in the music industry try to be somebody else, like they try to BE Beyonce, and all the other great stars. And how they become superstars, it's because of they're own personality, they got the edge.
Well, I got two more days of the workshop. I'm really enjoying it though.
I know I will learn a lot more during these next two days.
I guess this time with a little bit more different mindset.
Just go with the flow, have fun, and let whatever will change me, change me.
I guess I had to actually experience being humbled to actually get rid of my perfectionism in me. I wouldn't say it's totally gone. But yeah... Just go with the flow and find my own 'flow'.
Looking forward to tomorrow and the next.
God be with me. =]
Learned a lot about myself during the workshop. Funny I'm suppose to learn more about singing and song writing. But yeah of course I did learn.
The most distinct thing that I actually learned was how much of a perfectionist I was.
Yeah... Pretty tough one. How I would actually see myself as one of the greats. hahah... I'm serious. Well, I didn't actually admit it. But I somehow would start to expect. Even though I would tell myself, no, I'm just going to have fun and learn and that's it.
Phewh... Saw many, many great singers, especially the young kids, 13-15 years of age, and I'm sure, very, very sure that you'd be astounded by how good they were, at such a young age, they're pretty much like divas. Man.... I really salute to their talent.
I'm sure they will go far.
That was such a humbling experience. And yeah, I did sing in front of like 40+ people, and wasn't prepared for it. Whoo... Haha... First time I've ever done that. Well, every single person had to do it anyway haha...
I really congratulate myself for that though. And I'm sure that experience added to my confidence in myself.
The other thing that I learned was that, to be great in the music industry. You gotta be you, because there will only be one you, your uniqueness, and nobody else can be you.
David Jaanz, one of the directors of the Dream Inc. workshop said that, many people in the music industry try to be somebody else, like they try to BE Beyonce, and all the other great stars. And how they become superstars, it's because of they're own personality, they got the edge.
Well, I got two more days of the workshop. I'm really enjoying it though.
I know I will learn a lot more during these next two days.
I guess this time with a little bit more different mindset.
Just go with the flow, have fun, and let whatever will change me, change me.
I guess I had to actually experience being humbled to actually get rid of my perfectionism in me. I wouldn't say it's totally gone. But yeah... Just go with the flow and find my own 'flow'.
Looking forward to tomorrow and the next.
God be with me. =]
This is it...
This is it...
Been waiting for this for months already.
I will find out tomorrow if singing, and songwriting is my passion tomorrow.
Feel a bit nervous. Shaking with excitement in the same time. I hope I can sleep tonight haha...
Well... I'll just enjoy myself.
I'm going to have fun. No matter what.
God be with me.
Been waiting for this for months already.
I will find out tomorrow if singing, and songwriting is my passion tomorrow.
Feel a bit nervous. Shaking with excitement in the same time. I hope I can sleep tonight haha...
Well... I'll just enjoy myself.
I'm going to have fun. No matter what.
God be with me.
Friday, September 11, 2009
Life is like learning how to ride a bicycle...
Another thing came into my mind after going through a phase of "I don't care
what people think of me."
I've realized something. Yeah it's true that it's none of my business what people think of me.
But I learned something out of this phase.
I learned that life is like learning to ride a bicycle.
Picture a little boy, who's got a new bicycle from his dad.
Excited, he goes to the park together with dad to try his new ultimate bike.
Still wobbling, trying hard to get it right, while his dad looks on him with a smile, and from time to time holds on to the bicycle to guide him.
And still wobbling, finding it hard to steer his new bicycle, and then suddenly falls...
His dad would come rushing to comfort him, and to encourage him again.
I learned life's like that. It's like learning to ride a bicycle.
We would wobble left and right whenever we learn new things.
We would fall sometimes. But so what?
It doesn't mean we stop riding the bicycle, it's just too fun not to keep going... Well I was like that.
I've had some pretty bad falls.
The worst one was when I was racing with my friend and he was ahead, I accidentally twisted the steering thingy, whatever you call that. haha...
Then I fell face first... Ouch... haha. Tasted the salty and warm road.
Mind you I was going pretty fast. Man... I was called Rudolf the red nose reindeer for sometime haha...
Here's another one. My friend and I were racing again, this time I was ahead, but I had to stop at the side cuz a car was passing by. My friend who was really going fast couldn't stop and hit an island beside me, and he flew forward more than 2 meters, and splashed into the black gutters!
Man I saw it as if it happened in slow motion! Superman! hahaha...
That was the craziest thing I've seen. haha...
I was laughing and asked him if he was okay, but he was angry haha... But it's all good.
Yeah bad falls...But we've never stopped riding a bicycle.
In life we make mistakes. It's alright. We learn from them.
And God, our dad looks on us with a smile, while we learn, while we are being perfected.
No one's perfect while we're here on earth. You can only reach perfection, once your in heaven.
How will you know you can ride a bicycle if you don't even try. Same goes with anything in life.
Well, my main point is it doesn't matter if you make mistakes. God looks on and lovingly smiles at us as we go on through life learning. Just like the little boy learning how to ride a bicycle as his dad looks on and lovingly smiles at him.
Here's an excerpt from John Powell's book "The secret of staying in love."
"The tension resulting from problems and pain is part of the whole piece. It usually directs our attention to a growing edge of life, a territory for expansion. For myself, I do not regret the problems or pain in my past life, but only the apathy, the moments when I was not 'fully alive'"
Yeah, so just have fun as we go through life.
And we'll look back and laugh, reminiscing, good old times, as we grow so much bigger than our problems.
what people think of me."
I've realized something. Yeah it's true that it's none of my business what people think of me.
But I learned something out of this phase.
I learned that life is like learning to ride a bicycle.
Picture a little boy, who's got a new bicycle from his dad.
Excited, he goes to the park together with dad to try his new ultimate bike.
Still wobbling, trying hard to get it right, while his dad looks on him with a smile, and from time to time holds on to the bicycle to guide him.
And still wobbling, finding it hard to steer his new bicycle, and then suddenly falls...
His dad would come rushing to comfort him, and to encourage him again.
I learned life's like that. It's like learning to ride a bicycle.
We would wobble left and right whenever we learn new things.
We would fall sometimes. But so what?
It doesn't mean we stop riding the bicycle, it's just too fun not to keep going... Well I was like that.
I've had some pretty bad falls.
The worst one was when I was racing with my friend and he was ahead, I accidentally twisted the steering thingy, whatever you call that. haha...
Then I fell face first... Ouch... haha. Tasted the salty and warm road.
Mind you I was going pretty fast. Man... I was called Rudolf the red nose reindeer for sometime haha...
Here's another one. My friend and I were racing again, this time I was ahead, but I had to stop at the side cuz a car was passing by. My friend who was really going fast couldn't stop and hit an island beside me, and he flew forward more than 2 meters, and splashed into the black gutters!
Man I saw it as if it happened in slow motion! Superman! hahaha...
That was the craziest thing I've seen. haha...
I was laughing and asked him if he was okay, but he was angry haha... But it's all good.
Yeah bad falls...But we've never stopped riding a bicycle.
In life we make mistakes. It's alright. We learn from them.
And God, our dad looks on us with a smile, while we learn, while we are being perfected.
No one's perfect while we're here on earth. You can only reach perfection, once your in heaven.
How will you know you can ride a bicycle if you don't even try. Same goes with anything in life.
Well, my main point is it doesn't matter if you make mistakes. God looks on and lovingly smiles at us as we go on through life learning. Just like the little boy learning how to ride a bicycle as his dad looks on and lovingly smiles at him.
Here's an excerpt from John Powell's book "The secret of staying in love."
"The tension resulting from problems and pain is part of the whole piece. It usually directs our attention to a growing edge of life, a territory for expansion. For myself, I do not regret the problems or pain in my past life, but only the apathy, the moments when I was not 'fully alive'"
Yeah, so just have fun as we go through life.
And we'll look back and laugh, reminiscing, good old times, as we grow so much bigger than our problems.
Friday, September 4, 2009
To live a life of Love...
Time for me rant here...
Do you know that feeling when you feel like your the little guy?
It sucks big time.
Looking for approval, waiting for someone to tell you that what your doing is right or wrong...
Gahh...
I realized I've been living like that, and I'm sick of it.
Living with the fear that what I'm doing might be wrong, and the other might disapprove of it. And whenever that would happen I would feel demolished.
I guess this is the most crippling trait I've ever had.
It stops me from moving forward. Gets me stagnant, paralyzed, because I would be afraid to make mistakes, afraid to fail, afraid to make a fool out of myself, afraid what the other might think of me.
I'm so sick of it.
I don't care now. Whatever people will think. I don't care. You don't like me, then that's your problem.
I'm breaking out of this crippling cycle, this paralyzing fear.
I'm going to do my thing, by my own decisions, on my own accord. You're not going to tell me what to do. You're going to ask me, and I'll decide. I'll be my own boss thank you...
And if I make mistakes, then so be it. I will learn from it.
I don't want to live a life driven by fears, to do things because I feared.
But I want to live a life of love, to do things because I loved, with nothing held back, and nothing stopping me.
To do everything out of Love.
That is what I aspire to do... To be fully alive.
"The Glory of God is a person who is fully alive."
-Saint Irenaeus
Do you know that feeling when you feel like your the little guy?
It sucks big time.
Looking for approval, waiting for someone to tell you that what your doing is right or wrong...
Gahh...
I realized I've been living like that, and I'm sick of it.
Living with the fear that what I'm doing might be wrong, and the other might disapprove of it. And whenever that would happen I would feel demolished.
I guess this is the most crippling trait I've ever had.
It stops me from moving forward. Gets me stagnant, paralyzed, because I would be afraid to make mistakes, afraid to fail, afraid to make a fool out of myself, afraid what the other might think of me.
I'm so sick of it.
I don't care now. Whatever people will think. I don't care. You don't like me, then that's your problem.
I'm breaking out of this crippling cycle, this paralyzing fear.
I'm going to do my thing, by my own decisions, on my own accord. You're not going to tell me what to do. You're going to ask me, and I'll decide. I'll be my own boss thank you...
And if I make mistakes, then so be it. I will learn from it.
I don't want to live a life driven by fears, to do things because I feared.
But I want to live a life of love, to do things because I loved, with nothing held back, and nothing stopping me.
To do everything out of Love.
That is what I aspire to do... To be fully alive.
"The Glory of God is a person who is fully alive."
-Saint Irenaeus
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